hello, i am arlo, also known as my name: [Σερφήλιος Ζχόλιόβαλίβιαλ]. or other aliases online
this page that i decided to create due to my lack of interest of anything, is meant as a way of sharing out my thoughts of everything and who i am. i have no idea what motivated me to start writing this biography about myself, maybe it was something in my head telling me to describe parts of my life to people in a website in long detail, just because i could!(?) but mostly feeling like people should know things about me when they get to know me or something.
by the way just a notice for people that are wondering about this, this is going to be a long read if you're that interested. if you'd want to try reading this, do it in parts instead of all at once (because, yknow, it's really long!). THIS ALSO COVERS WHO I REALLY AM, so you may (or may not) be shocked to read any of this, but doesn't matter anyways.
i update and revise things in this page, but try to keep the past in-tact, so there will never truely be a final version until i die.
my life has been filled with very strange things, with my mental condition and brain always being in a negative state in my standpoint i feel like i live in a place that im doing things wrong in constantly, not in a terrible sob-story or snabby way but more of a "is reality truely simple, or does it describe more somehow that im not noticing?". trying to figure out anything like that has always been a failure and a waste of time, so I try taking the Laissez-faire option instead on those kinds of things.
but with that, it seems like no matter how hard i try with that, i will always end up questioning the life of myself, and the lives of others that i have never seen or have seen in the eyes of disgrace to the skies above, to wash down any sight of my conscience with dispair or blindness. i wished to see further or be ignorant of everything and stay blind, if i want to be able to proceed in the world it would have to be through other means necessary.
(although, maybe not?)
deciding that i could seek further into the abyss fronted above, below, and beyond, i try to do so and have been doing so for years for discovering what this would could really be. sadly other than some descriptions i gave out to people nobody knows about why i like to travel or even me loving to travel places. because some people like to think i mean going on a plane and touring a contry, that is far from what i do, traveling to lands, places, and even artifacts by foot, by boat, or even some other kinds of transportation if i can find them. it's fun to do things like that and not give a care in the world of who owns them or anything, doesn't matter to me, doesn't matter to nobody.
haven't really told people who i am though, which is very great to me because nobody can truely know of my existance, nobody can truely know who i am and what i do, and nobody should know about anything further from the perception of my body and my words. until eventually i lose all of my memory and hope, and spit everything out with it eventually leading up to suicide or something even worse for myself.
through out the years i have been feeling more schizophrenic, insane, paranoid, and lost. also been feeling forgetful, with my memory loss getting worse and worse, now that i have been observing myself i seem to forget how to even construct words, or sentences, even discussions that i have with people seem to fall apart every single time i try to help myself get through it. even with myself i have forgotten sometimes of who i am, i don't even remember my family's name or what is going on in my life because of the constant dissociation with all of that i have been. don't feel like caring about that, feels like the better thing to do? maybe if i figure out the reason i don't remember or why i don't want to remember, maybe i can truely know why i've been like this.